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Elasticity of time

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Fields of summer

Fields of summer

I’ve been retired a month now.  My hope before I left work was that time would unfold in the slow dreamy way summer days did when I was a kid.

You remember those days don’t you?  Warm summer days when you got up with the morning light and lingered over breakfast, wandered outside later in the day, climbed a few trees, goofed off with neighborhood kids, stayed out late into the evening chasing fireflies.

Each day stretched out indefinitely.

Retirement started out that way.  The first few days, perhaps the first week, seemed to last forever.   Even now most of the day I don’t know what time it is, and that’s fine with me.  And I’ve long since lost track of what day of the week it might be.

But time is speeding up now, just as my grandmother told me, years ago, it would.

Suddenly it’s Tuesday, another weekend ended, another week already moving along, a whole month gone since I last commuted to work.  Midsummer and the 4th of July are right around the corner.   Somehow a quick after lunch nap stretches into early evening, a few minutes reading on the deck out back and the morning is gone, check Facebook and the sun drops below the horizon without warning.

Time seems to be an elastic band snapping back at me with intensity, a pendulum swinging toward the future at increasing speed.  The world seems to be screaming past, daring me to catch a ride, to fling myself up into the speeding vehicle moving toward something unknown.  But I’m dragging my feet, hanging on to the golden sun, the misty mornings, the glowing fireflies.

I’m hanging on, trying to slow time down.  Just for a little bit longer.

Golden summer marches on.

Golden summer marches on.

 

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Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

12 thoughts on “Elasticity of time

  1. It is disconcerting to feel the days running on into another- and moving at warp speed it seems. I feel the same way 🙂

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  2. it is odd that the older we get the shorter the days, weeks, years seem to be

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  3. Love your elastic band comparison—-great post. It is difficult to shift gears sometimes but I am confident you will master it soon. Enjoy.

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  4. I once heard a teacher say about summer vacation….”after the fourth of july, it’s pretty much over.” And he was so right! On the last day of school, it feels like you’ll have a luxuriously long break, but once the 4th of july hits, it flies by so fast.

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  5. A month already?! A prime example of how quickly time goes. If you find a way to slow time down, please share.

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  6. Time is a funny thing, Dawn. When we’re kids, summers last forever. Now we know that as soon as the Fourth of July is here, the next big thing is Back to School! Congrats on your first month of retirement!

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  7. I think you have the idea of how to stretch time as far as you can. My summer in the bookstore is a quick blur, but as a former student and teacher and tutor (not all at once), I love NOT having to go back to school in September!

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  8. I dont know why but I cant find your email address. I wanted to send you this link to a truck accident this weekend. I do not know if the trucker was at fault.
    http://www.greenvilleonline.com/story/news/local/2015/06/27/three-dead-fiery-wreck/29392357/

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  9. There was another one that was in NC. The parents lived but the 2 year old and her unborn baby died. They said it was the truckers fault but now I cant find the article. I think the husband was a paster of a church. Its just to upsetting. They need limits on their driving time. No one can drive that much and still function.

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    • Yes, I remember that one. He was a minister. Both children died. It was devastating for his family and his church and community. You are right, this has to stop. Fatigue is a huge problem that we are working on. Soon (soon being relative in terms of government) on board recorders will be in all trucks and that will keep track of how many hours they’ve driven. It will be easier to enforce the hours of service rule.

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